Last week my book hit the stands…(deep breath)… I have to say… I’m beyond humbled and grateful for this opportunity to get a book published by Zondervan. It’s a dream come true. I’ve never felt more like myself and more comfortable in my own skin than I do right now. I am nervous because I will have family reading this and they didn’t know exactly what I went through—the struggles, poor choices… everything… and that’s incredibly vulnerable to share!
I’ve been trying to define my heart my entire life… and I feel like the title of my book describes the meaning of that life-long search. I also feel like part of my journey is to live a life of authenticity and transparency and I want that for other people. So there’s also an element of healing to the release of my book. I’ve talked about it before, but I think there’s so much comfort in sharing our pain with each other. God calls us to do that. When we share our pain and our struggles, it’s uncomfortable, but there is so much beauty in it, and it allows us to connect with others who are struggling. That’s where God meets us. He’s in charge of refining and finishing us, while it’s our job to share and be raw with each other. I often think about people with addiction (of any kind), who are in so much pain but don’t know how to unmask that pain so they turn to their addiction to numb the pain.
Our self-worth gets so distorted by society. We are not meant to keep our struggles inside of us. The shame, the guilt, and the pain is what keeps us down. The bottom line is that we are ALL going through something. As I’ve become more open about my past and more transparent, the less I start to care what people think. True friends love you for YOU or they don’t. We can’t control that. We are called to love others as He loves us.
God loves ALL of you, the good, the bad, and the ugly. He takes your brokenness and makes it beautiful.
I’ve lived many years through the lens of perfection… but I’ve finally embraced it. I’m ok that I’m still a work in progress and that I’m still on a journey, and I want you to embrace it too. And I’m beyond excited that I get to share my heart with all of you! The goal is to keep our eyes on Jesus. I feel like if we can shift our perspective and let go of what people think and focus on God, we will find peace. We will become a God pleaser instead of people pleasers.
So, on that note- liberated, humbled, transparent, honest, vulnerable… I hope you enjoy my book…It’s who I am. And who we all are, perfectly unfinished children of an amazing God.