This week I have been thinking (and talking) a lot about heavenly mercy…what it means to experience God’s heavenly mercy when we least expect it… When you are going through a storm, there are so many others going through the same or worse… and that often brings comfort, knowing that we are not alone. That’s why it’s so important to be transparent. I’ve touched on this in past posts, but it’s been so clear to me recently watching my friends struggle (and me struggling too).
I asked my dear friend how she was seeing God’s heavenly mercy work in her life and she responded. “When you are in the thick of it, it really is heard to see through the trees.” God’s hand is always in it; carrying us through it, but for her, being so devastated and beat down by her circumstances (ugly divorce), she had trouble answering that question.
A few days later she called me back and told me that she had been thinking about it and the answer was as clear as day: she had a group of women (Christian, Mormon and non-believers) who had literally picked her up off the ground, stayed up late on the phone to hear her cry when she was in (and still is in) so much pain, showed up at her door to run errands with her, make her meals, send her encouraging notes, pray with her and for her, and just tell her that it was ok to not feel ok and to be where she was in it all. They showed her His love and mercy by loving her unconditionally in her darkest moments where she didn’t even feel like “herself.” She felt so uncomfortable in her own skin and yet they loved her more…and deeper.
It made me think of a very dark moment when Evie was in the hospital when she was about 2. It was incredibly scary. All of the kids had been sick with a cold for about a week. My two older ones got better but Evie just kept getting worse. We ended up with her in the hospital for a week with RSV, where she was on an IV, antibiotics, oxygen & steroids (and it wasn’t helping!). David and I did 12 hour shifts with her, holding her tiny body and just being with her…and feeling helpless–with her limp body in our arms. When you are in those emergency moments all you can do is pray and ask for God’s help. When life is going ok, our faith isn’t necessarily being tested…but in these dark moments it’s where we need to seek the light—His light.
God will use other people to walk with you. While we were with Evie, the chaplain at the hospital became my lifeline. He was the one who was my conduit towards the Lord when I didn’t have the faith to believe or to pray. This man spoke life and hope and the word of God into Me and Evie and David…
Isaiah 26:3 says “You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.”
Remember that our God is full of grace and mercy and agape love. Finding the beauty in the brokenness and thanking God for His hand is sometimes all we can do. We need to remember to turn to Him and trust in His perfect plan.
Hinds sight we can look back and say, “that was hard,” but I have to say that I could not have survived the challenges in my life without His mercy.