This past Sunday I had the privilege of going to Orange County to share at Shephards Grove Church and Hour of Power . I had to be up at 4:30 am to get ready and head down there to be on time. After a beautiful, but long day, I settled in at home for the night, exhausted…and ready for some rest…But sleep wasn’t happening Sunday night!! I ended up being up all night with one of my children . She was up coughing most of the night and just when I settled back in to go to sleep, she came in to let me know she had a wet bed… Can anyone relate??
In my book I talk a lot about finding the beauty in the brokenness. The past week our focus has been about our own struggles and how those shape and strengthen us. I know for me currently, I struggle with self-care and b a l a n c e . I feel I am not consistent with my activity levels. I’m not exercising or doing things to keep my body strong. I mean, right now my kids are in 7 sports. Yep. S e v e n!!! So you can only imagine all of the driving around we do! One of my kids requires at least a solid hour of attention for homework, so when I’m not playing Uber mom, I’m working through homework…and as I mentioned last week, the daily demands of keeping up the house and being a working mama too.
In these moments of desperation when I feel spread thin, I end up neglecting my own well-being and the scale tips to a place of unbalance. I am too tired to take care of myself so I end up drinking too much coffee, not exercising and cutting corners, which ultimately hurts my body and disables me from functioning. Even more important, I struggle with carving out the time to keep up with my devotionals and things that are healthy for my heart and my faith.
“…For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came in Christ Jesus.” Romans 3:23-24
Thank goodness for redemption. It’s hard to find the beauty in the brokenness… to figure out what I’m learning and discovering about myself. If I look at the big picture, I realize that all of this chaos teaches me that I have to surrender so much (even the little things) over to God. We all need to slow down and connect with Him. Even if it’s 5 minutes—I need that connection to fill up with His peace. If I can hand things over to Him, I can start with my tank healthy as opposed to frazzled and depleted.
My dear friend just came out of a divorce. Her struggles are very different than mine. She struggles with balance too, but what’s currently her biggest struggle is how to be obedient, setting boundaries, and protecting her heart as she ventures back into the dating world at 40. She is finding the temptation to be intimate a very real struggle all while rediscovering her self-worth. When all is said and done, she is finding herself relying more on trusting in the Lord and knowing that what He has planned for us is greater than anything we could have imagined. Learning how to trust in Him can be hard—it’s a lesson we learn over and over again…
How about you? What are you struggling with and how do you think it’s helped strengthened you?